Written by Matt Howard
I’m not a journaling kind of guy. Never has it been my practice to write down what is happening in my life, good or bad. Some time ago I had the idea to open a wordpress blog just to keep my worship ministry informed into what was going on within me. I think I made it about a month of writing before life snuck in and stopped that cold. But I’m glad I had the chance to write this. And now I’m glad I’ve had the chance to read it again. Please indulge my sharing.
Recently God has been speaking to me through music a lot more than normal. It is something that, oddly enough is somewhat foreign to me. Even as a worship leader I can often miss the back and forth of communication that should be happening during a worship song, or any song that glorifies God for that matter. As I sit here writing this article, I am well aware that the music inside my office is wafting down the halls a little farther than it should (read: the volume goes to ‘11’). And it probably isn’t what you may be hearing within the confines of your mind at this moment.
I am listening to the song “Nothing But the Blood.” This isn’t a normal version though. No, no, no. This might possibly one of the best expressions of worship I have heard in a long time. Andy Cherry has taken some words that have been around a while and updated the music behind them in a very surreal and simple way. But there is also a new chorus that he added to the song that, for me, takes it over the top.
I found this song on my way back from playing music for a wedding in Indiana a couple of weeks ago. It was overnight turn-around for us. (We didn’t get home until 1am.) The girls were asleep in the car so I had my headphones in while I was driving. This song came on and it made me want to stand up and start praising Jesus. It made me want to move. It made me want to sing. It made me want to be playing along with the guys on the record. It made me sad. Wait… hold the phone… you just said this was one of the best songs you’ve ever heard, why did it make you sad?
Sad. See, for me in this moment that tidal wave of pressure and self-doubt that had been taking hold in my life came around full circle and was staring me in the face. Jesus and I were about to have a “come to Jesus” talk. Jesus was about to teach me something. Jesus was about to smack me. Jesus was about to hug me. The new chorus of the song simply says “Because the blood of Jesus is enough for me.”
In this singular moment inside a rental Toyota Yaris (Read: car far too small for Matt to drive), Jesus and I had a real heart to heart. We met upon the battleground of my soul. Jesus has a way with words. Jesus only had one thing to say, really, one thing to ask. “Is MY blood really enough for you?”
Smacked. Hugged. Broken. Whole. Destroyed. Affirmed. All of that happened in the span of a moment. See, Jesus’ blood really is enough for me. And when that realization comes full circle, the rest of the junk in this world fades away in the light of His glory and grace. So here’s the question then… Is Jesus’ blood enough for you?
What was happening to me in the moment was burnout and discouragement. I am incredibly thankful for that song and that moment in a rental car. I was done, I was ready to give up. In May 2013, I did not know about something called the Experience Conference. In September 2013, I had the opportunity to attend my first Experience. And man am I glad I did. If that rental car moment was the beginning of a journey towards a resurgent ministry focus, the experience conference was the defacto end. If anything within you is tired and ready to give up, find a way to attend Experience in 2015. There are two opportunities, July 6-9 in Dallas, TX and one September 8-11 in Orlando, FL. Allow the blood of Jesus to rejuvenate you around 1000+ of your closest worship ministry friends.
What can wash away my sins?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus
What can make me whole again
Nothing by the blood of Jesus